about ourselves

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ABOUT OURSELVES

               When fate is not in accordance with what is expected, heart felt hampa.god must have been planned and he would know what the most baik.Mozaik crashing, beautify the world like a picture of immense majesty no god, but the ego in this self-destroying gratitude to each sleeve you, O God, is this the counterparts of what you berikan.Diri is different from the other brother, from the physical to psikis.initially this difference does not seem small but when I stepped on  running time can not be there anymore in rid best different in themselves, although I believe that he is the biological brother but somehow we were destined diffrent .is this  god plan for me and him, is this what this best .day , again felt the bitterness of life, soul lament the fate of the sleeve, starting from now I should be differentiated than others, perhaps just a friend who inspired me to make a living that dark hour, I began to feel much of the creator, is this it had the best plan of God. "Ah, fuck this world if you just why I was born like this", i this  snapped .indeed languish on the fate of my mind at that mess, I think I want to die than live only a matter of ridicule, there's nothing to defend me, even my own parents did not know I want to get rid of where.run through day after day no matter up crashing uncertainty of self. "Hey, boy what are you doing there let's here, come nigh!", a voice that seemed lethargic call someone grandfather in a mosque courtyard, I was shocked forgot already  to where I walk, "loh, what is it really even daydreaming, ayokesini!"grandfather's voice, this time louder than before. "oh, yes I will there grandfather ." I said, rushing approach .dream I thought I wasin the mosque ar-rizal. Not think myself that this was always my shadow in mosque in a dream, this mosque seem obsolete, it is fair because the mosque has been standing for a century, during which there has been no renovation at all, there is a grandfather ahmad marbot this mosque and even then only ten years , and oddly enough he can survive only by being marbot whose income is only three thousand a week and even then that's nothing kind enough to give him money, there is additional income sideline but rose only slightly, even though he was so brave through the twists hidup.Ku decided I would help grandparents become marbot mosque ahmad rizal ar-willingly, because here I just feel the beauty of expected, desired and of course loved the new I sincerely feel that all I was soon at the age of twenty-three, and there anyway, I decided to change my name in accordance with the name of the child's grandfather ahmad lost when fire engulfed her home, which leaves only a grandfather ahmad, originally my name is muhammad Abdillah Rafky Syahputra be, I expect this to change my name will be a little treat at son .almost a sense of longing in me I live there with ahmad grandfather, I learned many things with her grandfather's intelligence is extraordinary ahmad very broad horizons, I realized that life is not over completely, that's where I feel closer to God the Creator, but prosperous inadequate and grandfather there I decided to work, but what can I say that no one would accept me. "Son, please let grandparents who are looking for additional work." he said to me saataku home and was again empty-handed, "Grandpa did not let me tryagain tomorrow . "I said optimistically but the old man shook his head in disbelief even so great spirits once I was shocked when my grandfather ini.tomorrow breathing panting for some reason," Son, may live a moment's grandfather, the grandfather of the message to you be a Muslim author and continue your studies in the arts, and do not forget to hurry up when it is able to marry. "That's the last words that broke my heart, just someone I loved was gone again, lamenting the miserable soul sleeve running heavy sadness tears streaming down a quiet day for his departure, seemed grandfather went so fast I thought I had just met my grandfather the other day, this day have to part, time is the awesomeness can not be contained by anyone except the khaliq.Setelah's grandfather decided to run the message, I'll make it as the beginning of my future plans, I do not want to continue to dissolve in grief, I would look to the future with hopeful determination in the chest, because maybe tomorrow or the next day I would follow my grandfather, because each of his creations will definitely come back to our lives trying to be a noble dihadapannnya or simply to fuel the fire Hell, my life is not over themselves still have a chance to improve themselves

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